Then when I saw the pregnancy test for the first time, I felt this overwhelming sense of joy and love (and maybe fear). And the first time I saw Greta on the ultrasound, my joy and love grew. I never knew you could love something so much that you had never met (beside God). Then when my water broke, my joy turned to nervousness as I realized I was finally going to be a mom with a real baby. And for Greta after 50 long hours, and I got to meet her face to face, it was love. True unconditional love. I knew I wasnt going to be the perfect mom (well I didn't but quickly figured it out). I knew we'd have our ups and downs along the way. But one thing I knew is that I would always be there for her. I would protect her no matter what. And love her forever!
Then almost 2 years later when we found out the sequel was on her way. I felt joy and worry. How as a mom would I ever be able to love someone as much as I love Greta? I didn't think it was possible. But as I heard her heartbeat and saw her on the ultrasound, my love began to grow. Maybe it was possible. And the second I heard her cry and they placed her on my chest, I could feel my heart grow. There was room for two. Although it wouldn't be the same, I would protect her, and never let her worry that I didn't love her as much as Greta. Because I did. She was my Lola.
So here's to surviving over 3 years of motherhood. There's been happy days and sad days. There's been times of laughter and times of tears. I've made sacrifices and compromises. I've been peed on, puked on and bit. I've been hugged and kissed and cuddled with. I've wiped away tears, held hands, rocked them until all the cares in the world faded away. Ive realized I'm not perfect and I don't have to be.
Through it all, one thing remains the same, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love being a mom.
2 comments:
Beautiful post Ab, you are a great mom! Love Julie
Great post, Abbey! You're a great mom!!
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